Right Direction

I am happy to say that I feel like my getting myself back on track, is taking me in the right direction. I have always felt that this journey is taking me in the right direction, but more so now, than ever before. As most of you know, I am a Weight Watcher. I joined the program in May 2011, and continued on it until I hit my goal weight, in Feb 2012. Some of you know that I left the program, to try it on my own, but what you don't know is why I left.
I left WW online, not only because I felt that I had the tools necessary to do it on my own, but because I honestly got bored with it feeling like a chore. I felt like I was committed to the computer, and the scale. More than that, I felt like it defined me. I felt that even though I could 'eat whatever I wanted to', only in moderation, that when I would 'treat myself', I was mentally beating myself up about it. This was happening a lot, and it started to become a big problem for me. I needed to get myself out of this mentality of feeling like I had 'cheated' on the program, like I wasn't 'allowed' to have a cookie, or some ice cream. For me, thinking like this, and having it happen EVERY TIME I allowed myself a treat, was unhealthier than actually having said treat. Once I stepped away from the program, and away from the computer, I felt a sense of freedom. I knew that I had the tools, and information, I needed to apply the program to my life, without feeling tied down to it, so I did. From Mar 2012 to Aug 2012, I did very good maintaining my goal weight. Of course, I had weeks when the scale would show a 1-2 lb loss, and other weeks would show a 1-2 lb gain. But, that's normal during maintenance. I have to admit that, when those times came that I saw the gain, I would wonder if I made the right decision by leaving the program. It wasn't until the end of Aug2012, that I realized I truly do need the program, not just to maintain, but to keep myself on track for real. I had gained 4 lbs, and it stayed that way for 3 weeks. But, it was MY fault. I was not eating right, or healthily. I had fallen back into old and bad eating habits, and I knew that something had to be done about it. I had talked to my husband about rejoining, and why I knew I needed to, but it was almost like I needed a sign to tell me that I should.
Around this time, my good friend, Krystle from www.myskinnyjeansdreams.com, needed someone to maintain her FB page, while she was on vacation. One of my friends suggested I do it, so I did. During the time I was maintaining her page, I realized the path that I needed to be on, not only for myself, but for others. I went into maintaining the page, as a fresh start. It was exactly what I needed to get me back on track. I was not only inspiring others, but they were inspiring me. I was being told how helpful, wonderful, inspirational, and motivational I was for them, and that I should start my own page. After long consideration, I did, and I am so glad I did.
The day after starting my page, I got a call from a friend of one of my Sister in Laws, a personal trainer. I had only spoken to her maybe twice in a year, so the call came as a surprise. She began asking me if I had ever worked with a trainer, and if I would like to. She then began to tell me that each year, she seeks out someone who is motivated, and inspiring, and just needs that extra umph, to keep at it. I was floored. Not only that, I knew in my heart that this was a sign from above, that every decision I had made, and was making, was the right one. What started as me going to rejoin WW in Oct 2012, changed to me rejoining 3 days after I created my page, because I knew that if I was going to start working out with a trainer, I had to have my diet right. What also was supposed to be a challenge of the Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred in Oct, changed to me starting it 6 days after creating my page, because I figured why wait? There was NO reason to.
Since creating the page, I am back in the mindset of wanting to do things healthier, and wanting to help others do the same. I love that so many are on this journey for themselves, as well as on this journey with me. Since rejoining the program, am I back down to 140 lbs, and I plan to lose more, and tone up. Since starting the 30 Day Shred, I can see a difference in my body, strength wise. I am on day 22, and this is the furthest I have ever gotten on it. I am proud of myself, and I have reason to be. There is no reason to put off getting healthy, or maintaining your health. There is no reason to wait. Period. I am now back to a point in my life where sharing my story not only helps others, but it helps me to remember how hard I worked to get to where I am, and how easy it is to fall off track. Weight Watchers works for me, and has for countless others, but I am a firm believer in doing what works for you. When I was on the program the first time, I applied to work for Weight Watchers, and it wasn't until I left from being an active member, that I was contacted about employment. I never took the time to respond to them, because I didn't feel right trying to work for them without being a member. Now that I am back on the program, I have reapplied. I have been contacted for an interview for employment again, and this time, I am going to take the time to find out if it is for me, and where it can go in the future. Second chances are few and far between, and sometimes they don't come around. Luckily for me, they have come back around, so I plan to do all that I can to make the most of it.